Spiritual Thought

So my prayers recently have turned toward having help learning the lessons Heavenly Father wants me to learn from this experience. And today I heard the most incredible talk on BYUtv (which I rarely watch, but just happened to flip by today) given at Education week this year by Brad Wilcox. His topic was the atonement and if you are interested in feeling completely moved and understanding the atonement and its vast purpose I highly recommend you look it up. I think you can find in on byub.org. One quote has stayed with me throughout this evening so I'll share:

"Jesus Christ doesn't love us because WE are good, He loves us because HE is good."

It always feels good to be reminded that the Lord is listening to the yearnings of my heart and that He is willing to find ways to inspire me and nourish my soul. This talk for some reason was exactly what I was longing to hear today and Heavenly Father found a way to get it to me. I know that without Jesus I am nothing and that with Him I can accomplish all He wants me to do. I cannot deny Him, nor would I ever try. Jesus loves me, this I know! If I ever were to doubt it, all I'd have to do is look at the light in my babies' eyes. I have enough evidence of His love in my life to convince the harshest skeptic.

You make me feel loved

To all my dear friends and sisters and sister-friends, etc.:

Do you know how much you make me feel loved? Going through this experience has brought so many of you out of the woodwork and it never ceases to amaze me how kind, thoughtful, and caring my friends and family are. Dave's sisters gave me a wonderful baby shower in August for family members and so many came to support me and the babies. Then my dear Draper friends Janna, Jen and Julie gave me a shower in September and so many of you showed up to support me that it was overwhelming! Not to mention that my little girls will have girly clothing and blankets when they are born--as well as a great start on the diaper collection! I was particularly overcome with gratitude to see the many people who showed up at the shower--people from all different areas of my life in Draper from the 1st Ward to the 6th Ward to Swim Team and the Treehouse to APA moms. Some of you I hadn't even seen in years but you came to celebrate with me anyway! It was a snapshot in time that for a minute I was able to feel like I really matter to others and have had some sort of influence for good in your lives! (Either that or you just really love celebrating babies! Maybe it's a little of both.)
So many of you have called to ask what you can do for us and I know that I have frustrated you by telling you that there's not much for now. I promise that I will let you come do many, varied, tasks once we get these babies home! We'll need all the help we can get. But thank you for offering--it means so much.
On top of that, while I have been on bedrest there have been many of you who have called and stopped by to help me pass the time. (Ali, Sherrelyn, Heather, Andi, Buffy, Brooke, Patti, Janna, Jenny, my little sis Ashley all the way from California, my sis-in-laws Megan and Ashley, Jessica, Staci, Julie, Kristin, Marilee, and if I missed your name I'm so sorry but I love you!) Sometimes you even bring yummy treats! I have had long-lost friends look me up to come for a short visit and that has been so fun. I have even made new friends on the internet who have seen my blog and been interested enough to pursue me. Being in this predicament has shown me who will really be there for me when the going gets rough, and I feel blessed that there are so many of you. I promise to always do my best to be there for you when it's your turn!