Showing posts with label thoughts. Show all posts
Showing posts with label thoughts. Show all posts
Monday, October 12, 2009
Saturday, June 13, 2009
Thoughts
Thought of the Day: My brain is mush. I'm tired and feeling lost. I'm ready for my reconstructive surgery to put abs and everything back where it goes but haven't planned it yet. My clothes don't fit. I'm tired, did I mention that? I don't remember how to connect with my hubby. My back hurts. What on Earth was God thinking? Does He REALLY think I can get through this? I'm trying so hard to keep my chin up, but my chin is getting really heavy. My kitchen is a mess. I need exercise. At least the babies' ear infections are getting better--so why are they still waking me up at 3:30 a.m.?
By the way, I had some x-rays done the other day (some of you know that I have had chronic back pain for about 5 years now) and they show my cervical spine to have completely lost its curve, my head sits off to one side, one of my shoulders is lower than the other, and my lumbar curve is exaggerated to compensate for the lack of curve in my cervical. Many disc spaces are narrowed and my facet joints in my lumbar are jammed up. OUCH!!! The Dr. asked me if I was surprised to see my xrays look so bad. Of course I wasn't surprised! I didn't come in to get them done because I think my spine is healthy! OUCH!!! No wonder I have pain. I am planning to try a new rehab program I found here in South Jordan at a place called "Integrated Wellness" that is supposed to restore my spinal curve, correct my posture, and restore some of my health. After all these years of pain I can't help but be skeptical, but if it will resolve my issues that would be heavenly. I am so used to pain every day that I don't think I give it any credit anymore, but it's there with me all the time and I'm just sick of it!
Another thought of the day: Why has this experience turned me into a cynic?
By the way, I had some x-rays done the other day (some of you know that I have had chronic back pain for about 5 years now) and they show my cervical spine to have completely lost its curve, my head sits off to one side, one of my shoulders is lower than the other, and my lumbar curve is exaggerated to compensate for the lack of curve in my cervical. Many disc spaces are narrowed and my facet joints in my lumbar are jammed up. OUCH!!! The Dr. asked me if I was surprised to see my xrays look so bad. Of course I wasn't surprised! I didn't come in to get them done because I think my spine is healthy! OUCH!!! No wonder I have pain. I am planning to try a new rehab program I found here in South Jordan at a place called "Integrated Wellness" that is supposed to restore my spinal curve, correct my posture, and restore some of my health. After all these years of pain I can't help but be skeptical, but if it will resolve my issues that would be heavenly. I am so used to pain every day that I don't think I give it any credit anymore, but it's there with me all the time and I'm just sick of it!
Another thought of the day: Why has this experience turned me into a cynic?
Friday, January 16, 2009
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